It’s been hard to motivate myself the last few days... stuck in the past for the purpose of deadlines (art residency apps) and unable to take a break. Emotionally and mentally taxing.
The need to artistically communicate transparency is still as important as ever! As just today, a few more Lyme Disease diagnosis’s were shared... babies and toddlers who are unable to communicate what is going on. Still lost to the lack of knowledge and understanding by doctors and their community.
So with that.... a spark to push. A reason to keep going.
Today I share with you a self portrait. Taken in Humboldt County. Nude and unafraid.
When your life comes crashing down around you because of an illness you pick up in nature... it’s a very common reaction to never go out in nature again. The PTSD is real.
For a long time this was me. I was “Lyme girl”. Everyone who went in nature should be tested for Lyme immediately. I was afraid to go for walks.. even in the city. I stopped photographing on location. I wouldn’t walk under trees, in the grass, or even on the beach. I completely feared the outdoors... for years.
This is no way to live. And TRUTH TIME?!....It wasn’t Lyme Disease that caused my life to come crashing down! It was.... ME!
Yes I was infected by a tick... but that illness was spread by extremely poor choices on my end. The magnitude of this issue was my fault and not nature’s.
Not sleeping, partying my butt off, party drinking multiple nights a week, taking on too many units, not managing my stress, eating like a poor college kid who was just left home alone with sweets, did.... (I used to eat frosting out of the containers as snacks. Raw cookie dough too.... I know 😩) I lived a life with zero regard for basic proper nutrition. I was also a NCAA athlete and thought that was making me healthy. LMAO 🤦♀️
Nature has done nothing but help heal me. Sometimes shit happens and it’s our job to find the message to rise above the circumstances we are challenged with.